Sunday, May 27, 2012
qod: i want it all to stop spinng
Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror.
It just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can't.
It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me
I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that:
Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that.
I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think.
I just want it all to stop spinning.
- Stephen Chbosky